Cry out loud

She’s left aside.
And forgetting her pride.
Jumping up,
While sinking down.

You are not there,
When I am sad.
You just walk circles
Around in my head.

The smile on her face,
Are tears coming up.
She will let them go,
Untill you say “stop”

And you're like always still not here,
Letting me feel hopeless and giving me fear.
Do I have to forget it .. and be proud.
Or should I just cry out loud