Shields don't always keep you alive

I keep swallowing these lies
Behind your burden
And I’ve caught your eyes a million times
Without facing your beauty
Your expressions written in marks
Which I’m not able to see...

I dreamt I wanted you forever
But all I did was hide
You said you thought of me forever
But it took another fight
And now I’m buried in broken promises
And all I do is run
While you’re picking up your life
Where it all once begun.

You couldn’t keep me alive
When I started to die
And it just didn’t stay together
When we gave it another try
And I wonder how it would be
When I’d knew the inner me
But I already broke our line
Which I’m still not able to see...

I dreamt I wanted you forever
But all I did was hide
You said you thought of me forever
But it took another fight
And now I’m buried in broken promises
And all I do is run
While you’re picking up your life
Where it all once begun.

It’s all over,
We’ve crashed the walls
And I try to climb,
As I begin to fall
And you are still, a question mark

I dreamt I wanted you forever
While I knew it wasn’t true
Would you even think of me forever?
When I’d say I already knew
And would you think of me forever?
When I’d tell you I loved you.

I love you

As tears fill my eyes with doubt
Your heart screams a bit too loud
To my self-conscious,
Like an overreaction
To my newest direction,
Leading the way
But with a rope around its heart
And an unspoken word
That’s not meant to be hurt.

You’re sitting in a cave
That’s supposed to be my grave,
And I’ve fed myself with bitterness
That your eyes can’t bear to see.
With your latest calculations
About my expectations..
I dare you to look in the eyes
Of a killer,
My perfect filler,
Your worst thriller,
Because the last three words
I’m able to see
Are instead of you, hunting me

And I’m fighting against the tide.